Day one back from Guatemala and I feel incredibly lonely; we had a lot of down time this year and I can honestly say that I bonded with the team a lot; by the end of the week it felt almost like we were some sort of family. Then today I was home and without all of them around me and I feel more than lonely; I know it’s silly that that is the thing I seem to miss most right now but its just the first thing, the most obvious of what I don’t have here with me today, I miss so much more than that but right here right now as I should be going to sleep, I just really need to get it out, to say today was hard for me, today as I come home I have so many thoughts running through my mind that I can’t even process them, and all I can think in that chaos is I don’t want to go to work in the morning, I feel terribly lonely I just want my “family” back, and my home doesn’t feel like home today. I’m sorry that I can’t describe my wonderful, beautiful, amazing trip to Guatemala right now, but my heart needs time to process the change and this is where I stand in this moment on this page of my story surrounded by the familiar things of my life, but completely out of sorts in this place called home.
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