Open Doors

Hi... in all my loneliness about returning "home" I missed something very important; God has a plan and a purpose for my life. Tuesday night before youth we worshiped and prayed like we always do; I'm still processing Guatemala, missing my mission trip "family" and then add in my friend Tyler won't be coming to youth after the fist week of July and he is leaving end of August begining of September and when you throw all that together I'm a bit of a mess this week, especially when you also add a sever lack of sleep, so with all that being said we were worshiping and praying Tuesday night, when Ben said that he felt like we needed to go around our little circle and have everyone pray, my first thought was I don't know what I'm going to say. Then God started speaking to me; He knew that i was sad, confused even lonely, He told me I needed to be thankful for open doors. It seems like everyone around me is on the edge of a new season in their lives, taking steps through open doors, I felt like I was being left behind; like where is my door and then God told me to be thankful for open doors, that's all I needed and I knew in that moment He was telling me that I have a door too, maybe not today, I might have to wait for it but that door is there, and so very worth the wait. I hope it opens soon, I pray for clarity an the path towards it, I'm still a little sad, I'm still a bit lonely but in order for me to find this wonderful, beautiful, amazing door God has for me to walk through I can't go backward, I need to keep looking forward and focus on God, and let Him guide this path.