“Want to know where your heart is? Watch where your mind goes when you daydream” one of my friends posted this on her facebook last week and it really made me think so I decided to write about it cause that’s what I do. I daydream more than I would like, and unfortunately the subject of said daydreams is not exactly what I want my heart to be focused on, its nothing bad just not what I would choose to be at the top of my priority list; its no place in particular, no specific adventure, not even a specific person per say, it’s simply an idealistic love story; meeting that one person God has picked out for me, and him telling me exactly what I’ve always wanted to hear. It’s silly really when I think about it, I mean daydreams sure, I want to fall in love no question about that but to say this is where my heart is, I’m not a fan.
I don’t want to be that girl, you know, the one who can’t function without the guy, or worse yet, the one who is so focused on finding “the one” she misses out on all the other awesomeness life has to offer. I think I can say for the most part I’m not her; I’m not going crazy looking for my husband; I trust God in that. I don’t need a guy to love me to be loved; God takes care of that one too. But some days, some days I feel like I’m still waiting for my life to start, like so much of my future involves another person I wonder how it is that I can decided where I’m going. On those days I become that girl, and when I think about it I’m not okay with that. I want to change those daydreams because that’s not where I want me heart to be, because when my heart’s there I miss out on all the other awesomeness my life has to offer.
So how do I do it; change these daydreams to something better, and stop thinking about the boy? I guess for starters I should decided where it is exactly I want to send my heart; I see a few good options, the top of the list including Guatemala, and other mission trips, music, books, writing and Jesus feet. I think I’ll go with the latter and focus on seeking God’s heart. In Matthew chapter 6 Jesus says not to worry about stuff or what will happen tomorrow (I’m paraphrasing) but to “seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” You see that’s where I want my heart to reside; I want to be that girl, you know, the one who is so caught up in following God, seeking His truth, and being in a relationship with Him that everyday is new; full of purpose and adventure. That everything is beautiful because God created it, and everyone is valuable because God loves them. And when the guy she has been waiting for enters her life God will still be her number one because it is God who holds her heart. Yeah, that’s more the type of girl I want to be.
Although I don’t want to be that "girl" (I am a man), I fully agree with your ingenious thoughts on the value of daydreaming. One must implore the knowledge of the Bible to understand the reasoning of our thoughts and I believe you portrayed that very well. It is true that from the over flow of our heart our mouth speaks and our body acts but it is from the thoughts we store in our mind that control our hearts desire. I say, well done and very well put Starr.
ReplyDeleteI FULLY understand where you're coming from... we should get together and talk about this. But the one thing that I kept thinking while reading this is that you're not in the wrong by any means with your day dreams about finding your other half. If you go back to the beginning God created Eve to be Adams "help meet." It's a core part of who we are. That being said, Paul was right about a single person having more of an opportunity to give their lives to God. You're doing well concentrating on that right now while you are single.
ReplyDeleteI was that girl. I never had a boyfriend until James. Boys didn't have crushes on me. All my friends had boyfriends and I wanted one too. When I first saw James I wanted him to like me, but he didn't. I seriously prayed every night for the Lord to let him like me.
ReplyDeleteLooking back it might have been a bit silly, but I think it is okay to want to have someone in your life.
The Lord's timing is perfect and I know there is a wonderful man waiting for you.