Barriers

I fit, but do I fit? This weekend was lovely, wonderful and down right fun; I met some people who I dare say became some friends, but do I really fit? This summer has been one of the best of my life; what makes it so special is the way I have gotten to see it. I spent this year so far looking for moments learning how to “Be” and be me, this summer is special because I got to live so many moments. Over the past month I spent so much time enjoying the company of my friends that I down right wore myself out, but it’s the time I spent with these people that made everything so beautiful. This weekend I was invited by one of my best friends to enter her college world; I met Amy near the beginning of this summer, she just finished her first year at Hope, but since our connection did not happen until June I had yet to meet any of her college friends. This was Coast Guard weekend and many of her Hope friends were going to be in town and she wanted me to meet them, I must say in a strange way meeting all of them makes me love Amy even more; these people, her friends, are all unique, with different gifts, personalities and talents; I am honored to now know them and I look forward to the opportunity to be friends with them as well. One weekend, watching a movie, walking the pier, worshiping together and playing Apples to Apples, one weekend and I wish I went to Hope. I am 22 years old, I have a full time job, I am a leader in two youth ministries at my church, I have been on 4 missions trips, and I sing on the worship team Tuesday nights, I help out in Sunday school and have taught at youth services 3 times, My life is busy and blessed and I truly enjoy the ways God is growing me in my life, but I am not a college student. I was always the smart girl who got the good grades, I thought for sure that I would go to college (don’t get me wrong I have not given up on that and I may still go) but right here right now this is my life, it shouldn’t matter whether or not I go to school, but this; the idea in my head that I’m less because I haven’t made it to college, is my barrier, one of the walls that I put up between me and whoever, if I never make it back to school it does not make me any less important to God, He has a plan and a purpose for my life and this is the knowledge that I walk in, if His plan for me is school He will show me my way and if it is not then whether or not I’m in school should not hold me back from enjoying these new people I wish to call my friends.